I just hate liking someone cause it just SUCKS. You start to notice everything about them and your feelings get stronger. You start thinking, dreaming, and wondering about them more and more and when your like the closest friends and you think your content with being just like that. You end up wanting more and that's when everything goes downhill, especially if they freakin' tell/ show you who they like and your filled with jealousy. Next thing you know, after a few days have passed you and your crush/ love hang out less, talk less, barely see each other and it's like a stab to the heart. Everytime you see her (or him), she (he) is with their crush and you hate it. Your also slightly pissed off cause your crush practically acts like you guys are dating and provokes you to make a move and then she (he) does this?? I just hate it... Some of you are lucky to not experience this and I say good for you and watch who out with whoever you like because you might be screwed over with in the end.

I hate her because I love her.

Sorry for the big rant but I just hate caring sometimes ~.~

I'm bored and... Yeah... Wrote this poem when I was depressed and it's kinda based off of her... Here you go :3


Yours smiles and hugs are no longer needed
Your services as a friend have been deleted
Like a computer crashing forever into eternal slumber
Your existence will fade in time and I'm still counting

You say it won't happen, that I'll come back
But inside you know, that your nothing but trash
Trash is too good for a nothing like you
Be glad for the pain I haven't striked with.

Did you know... How I felt?
The moment you kissed her, I broke apart.
I screamed, yelled, and cried out loud
Why couldn't you love me too?

I promised you... That I'd stay by your side
So I'll be there physically, not anything emotional or so.
When you laugh, I'll pretend to smile, even though I'm mad
When you cry, I'll comfort you, even though I'm laughing like a maniac inside

Even though I type this, I still cry
The thought of doing this to you hurts too much
So my decision finally made clear
I should end all ties with you, erasing you from my mind and memories alike

Deleting complete, there seems to be nothing new
I woke up this morning and went to school
This girl came up to me and said hi
The automanic reply was, "Your not worth my time"

... I should put this up as a deviant art thingy o-o Yesss, I will do that, anyways, yah... Bye-Bye!~